..... but it will be soon I promise.
We were nailed by the South Africa on the weekend. Biggest defeat at Twickenham in history. That cuts deep, deeper than an away loss because it is our home ground, the hallowed ground. South Africa were magnificent. I bumped into Bakkies Botha (their second row) on the street the other day and he was MASSIVE. A huge beast. To see him sprint across the field like a back to make a try saving tackle on Delon Armitage was impressive, inpsiring and reflective of the South African team. Total committment and athleticism. Ouch.
76-0 . That was the score when we lost away to Australia just after Clive Woodward took over and before he made us world champions. I hope this is the same situation, but something feels different. Back then we had Dallaglio, Johnson, Back, Hill, Leonard. I hope individuals grow into the same stature. How has it got so bad? People say we haven't been nurturing talent. This seems weird after the trumpeting of our academies and club development schemes. Whatever the problem is, it is deep and needs fixing. I stick behind Johnno, we have to get behind him and the team and support them while they grow.
I'm going to Twickers this Saturday to watch the All Blacks game. It will be bittersweet. My first trip to see the mighty Blacks play at the hallowed ground. Probably to see us get pummelled.
On another note there is so much going on at the moment, I'm struggling to take it all in and make sense of it. Struggling to fit the pieces together and figure out what is going to happen. Waking up to see pictures of Bombay in tatters and blood on the streets is difficult. Then to turn pages and read about how your government's ruling party is in huge amounts of debt, as a company, as an organisation. Recession is here, deflation, whatever you want to call it, and we are borrowing and spending more to heal it? It makes sense to economists, but to a layman it sounds wrotten, perpetual. Just like that Woolworths has gone under, MFI is going under, the world economy is contracting, China's economy is growing nevertheless but can't keep up with the growing workforce. All these economical structures and organisations based on such a weak platform. It feels like the world is about to descend into fully blown bollocks anarchy.
I'm listening to Pendulum's myspace at 9:30am... it's doing my head in.
Moments... music. Intertwined. Forever trying to gain control. Control being a futile proposition. Moments are independent and on a different plane, we can never catch them, but we can experience them. I'm always trying to stay in control, of my life, of my music, of my creativity, of the path to my goals. I'm starting to understand I never will be able to.
